I have always been the type of girl who falls too fast, too easily and gets lost in the moment too quickly when I meet someone I like. What can I say? I’m a complete hopeless romantic. 

However, as I’ve gotten older, and now that I’m starting to figure out my future plans, I’ve come to realize that I truly don’t need another person to make me happy. After all this time, I finally feel a sense of complete bliss and satisfaction. I have no obligations to anyone and I can focus on becoming the person I want to be. I am free to party or just stay in and relax. I can choose whom I want to see or hang out with. I love being able to figure out what I want to do, instead of focusing on catering to someone else’s needs. 

I have my whole future ahead of me and I seriously can’t wait to take the world on my own. Although I do get lonely like most do, it’s a small issue in the grand scale of things. Sometimes I let my loneliness get the best of me, but I know that it’s just for the moment. I always snap out of it and realize that just because I’m alone, it doesn’t mean I’m lonely. [Yeah, Kelly Clarkson, haha.]

We are no longer at the age where we have others to hold our hands and tell us what to think, say or do. Although I stress out about balancing my school, work, internship and having a social life, I’m happy to know that I’m handling it all on my own.

Once in awhile when I have a freak out, I just call my mom or stepdad and vent to them, and then everything is better. I am lucky to have a good amount of supportive friends who are there for me to get me through the hard times. That’s about all I need right now. I’m not saying relationships are a bad thing at all, I know how wonderful they can be, but there’s a time and place for everything and that time is not for me right now.

Lately, I’ve had more than a few people tell me that I’m too nice, & I need to be tougher & less naïve. They tell me I can’t go through life being nice to everyone all the time, or else the world will chew me up & spit me out. Even though I’ve heard this from several people, I still can’t justify why I can’t be sweet to everyone.

I think by nature, we all want to be accepted & appreciated for who we are. The world is so big, & it’s so easy to feel insignificant & completely alone. I understand these feelings because I feel this way too often, especially being as small as I am. :) Because I understand how much it sucks to have these isolated feelings, I try to go out of my way to brighten up people’s days. I want to give people a reason to believe that there are still good people out there who genuinely care.

We all get so caught up in our own lives sometimes that most of us never stop to appreciate all the kind gestures we receive from people. Although, I’m not an absolute angel, I want to at least know that I’m trying to make the world a more pleasant place somehow.

So next time, if someone tells me to not be as nice as I am, I’ll just tell them I’m going to be myself, even if that means being annoyingly nice. Yes, I will hold the door open for a stranger, give a cashier a sincere compliment, pick up random litter, leave a “have a wonderful day!” note on someone’s car, & be the friend who is there just to listen.

I will be the first person on the floor to help someone pick up their stuff when they drop it, go out of my way to return a lost wallet, share my umbrella, & be the one to pick up a friend anytime, even if it’s in the middle of nowhere at 3am. I will make peace with everyone regardless of what happened in the past. I think we could all use a little more love, so hate me for being sweet, but that won’t stop me from being nice to you. ;)